hopes of healing.


I wish I could adequately express how I feel.
Frustrated. Confused. Alone. Ruined. Messed up.
A while back, I wrote about being broken. The funny thing about being broken is you think you are better so many times just to find out there are still so many shards of glass scattered across the floor.
The pieces are coming together. Slowly but surely. Yet, there is still something missing.

At first, it was the loss of the person I loved but now the loss feels so much greater.
My ability to trust fully. To give sincerely. To love deeply.
For so long, I prided myself on my ability to love. Yet, the largest piece of me is what shattered the most in my fall.
How do I make up for a loss like that?
How do I learn to trust someone again?
How do I heal properly?
How do I take a leap of faith in love when the only reminder I have of it has been tainted?

Any insight to the above would be greatly appreciated.

Sincerely,
Kira

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