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I wish I could adequately express how I feel. Frustrated. Confused. Alone. Ruined. Messed up. A while back, I wrote about being broken. The funny thing about being broken is you think you are better so many times just to find out there are still so many shards of glass scattered across the floor. The pieces are coming together. Slowly but surely. Yet, there is still something missing.

I frantically looked down at the broken pieces in front of me. “What have I done?” I thought to myself. I immediately fell to the ground and began to pick up the pieces on the ground. I prayed to find a match to each piece so I could restore the vases to their original form. As I looked at the shattered pieces around me, I began to realize this task was much more daunting then I could have ever possibly imagined.

Those you who know me know that I am a fairly happy person. I like to be happy and to make others feel the same. We often feel like we must must always be happy.  Anger, frustration sadness and loneliness are seen as weaknesses, but guess what? They make you human. For so long, I have seen sadness as something I need to rid myself of.  "Move on", "Get over it", "You're fine now, right?" I've heard all of these things but I know myself and I need time to hurt.  Letting yourself be sad frees you from deadlines and meeting the expectations of others.  Let yourself feel. Let your heart ache. Take the time you need. I am not saying to let yourself mope in self-pity for the rest of your life. I am saying that you need to let yourself heal on your own time and on your own terms. Everyone is different. It is okay to feel.  I have decided to meet with a counselor to receive support and advice from an outside source. He told ...

My dearest friends, Many people are still not exactly sure why I am serving a mission or what I will be doing. For me, a mission is the opportunity to share and teach about the light that Jesus Christ offers to everyone. We all have the opportunity to return to live with Him and our Father in Heaven again. As a missionary, we teach people about how this possible. We teach them about the Gospel of Jesus Christ and the joy it can bring into their lives. We teach from the Bible and the Book of Mormon and from the words of Latter-day Prophets. We teach by the spirit and through faithful prayer and preparation. It is hard work but it is work that is meaningful and of eternal significance. Yet, in order to be successful in doing this, missionaries need a testimony of the truthfulness of the Gospel for themselves .I would like to share my testimony specifically on the truthfulness of the Book of Mormon. When I was 14 years old, I attended a church camp, EFY, for a week. We were challeng...

21 Behold, I say unto you that whoso believeth in Christ, doubting nothing, whatsoever he shall ask the Father in the name of Christ it shall be granted him; and this promise is unto all, even unto the ends of the earth. 22 For behold, thus said Jesus Christ, the Son of God, unto his disciples who should tarry, yea, and also to all his disciples, in the hearing of the multitude: Go ye into all the world, and preach the gospel to every creature; About two months ago, I was really struggling with accepting the fact that I would be serving a mission. I had so many fears and “what ifs” running through my mind. It was then I decided to say a prayer and ask my Father in Heaven for comfort. It was extremely late and I felt completely exhausted so I just went to read a few scriptures before bed. As I flipped open the Book of Mormon, this scripture is the first one I looked at. It is so simple and sweet but it was exactly what I needed to read. The purpose of my mission is not to focu...

Lately, I have been having a lot of fears. I have been worried about my mission and whether or not I am ready. I have been worrying about what will happen when I come home. Everything has just been building up in my mind.  Then I came across this scripture in Mormon 5:23. 23 Know ye not that ye are in the hands of God? Know ye not that he hath all power, and at his great command the earth shall be rolled together as a scroll? Then I realized that I am the Daughter of an all-knowing God. He knows everything about me and He knows what is best for me. He has already assured me that going on a mission is the right choice and I just need to trust in Him. As I have been going over the many options in my future, I have begun to put the greatest amount of trust in God than I ever have in my entire life. It has made so much of a difference. Instead of worrying and being sad, I am happy and enjoying every moment that I have. Through prayer and reading the scriptures, I felt the love an...